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[blackie]

Nights were still atypically cool for Spring, especially here at the Plateau. Winter seemed to be refusing to release its grip on the land by pounding the area with cold winds and harsh temperatures once evening fell. In the darkness it made the cirumstances even worse it seemed, for the Plateau held nothing but brittle vegetation and dense terrain. Bushes rattled with every gale that caressed the land, hindering the slumber of every creature who needed the silence to sleep. I was not one of those creatures although I did need solitude. I could not even sleep in the company of neither Haviana nor Boodica - two mares who I knew were knowledgeable enough to comprehend my ease around them. With them around I could not relax completely, but I knew it was because while I was with one I thought about the other; an eternal fire that I could not understand, I could not extinguish.

These were thoughts that previously scattered around my brain and caused me stress. Presently I was sleeping quite happily in the a desolate region of the Plateau. Snow Mountain was not too cold for me but since my herd was not located their right now, I found no need to stay there. I had found homeage here as this seemed to always be my retreat - for whatever reason. I was becoming aware of a gradual warmth that slipped across my frame, alterting me to the arrival of dawn and thus the end of my sleep.

Lids released their vice upon russet hued orbs, gaze slipping out from the draperies to see the land exactly as it had been when I had fallen asleep. My entire jaw line creeked as I grinded my teeth together before yawning. Aerial sensors twitched and flicked around, taking in my surroundings while also recooperating from the night. Skull tossed and shook, ligaments shifting in odd, prancing movements as I stretched the tendons. I brought my cadaver to a large rock face and scraped my flesh against it - masaging the muscles and bringing dirt to the surface.

I eventually withdrew and in the dimness of the few rays of sun which enveloped me, I allowed morning dew to rest upon my body, intending to use it later to groom myself, by myself most likely. With the thought of being alone I wondered if Haviana would be about. I had told her I needed to talk to her before any of the mares had even birthed, but with all the commotion I understood why she had not attempted to bring up conversation.

Silently I enjoyed the morning as it gradually became warmer, cranium shifting upon muscular curvature, incisors scraping my ebony hide as I gently cleased what parts of my body I could without hurting the wound on my neck. The winter had dried it out, caused it to itch and caused me to scratch it with either my hooves or trees. This constantly refreshed the wound and had made it bleed - really a good thing since the flow of blood cleansed the wound, allowed it to breathe and keep bacteria out. This also made it sore and slowed the time it would take to fully heal. To me, it was a giant blemish upon my neck, something everyone stared at; the scabbed slightly bleeding flesh, rippling with every movement of my crest. Snort caused nigrescent valves to flare, twinge of pain adding to my depressing thoughts as I stopped grooming myself, finding no use.



Post Status: complete/incomplete
Word Count: 586
My Muse Level: bad/average/good/excellent
My Mood: Sore and tired. My knee is killing me
Incognito's Mood: Content, slightly depressed.

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[::MakybeDiva428::]

The sun was rising gently across the deep azure sky, fading into a new day. A new day brought new hope and promise to the world. Night creatures went into a deep slumber, the animals of the day awoke. The air was clear and crisp as Haviana slowly trotted around the Plateau. She was restless. The herd had left their home and was staying at Silver Arrow's herd. Princess was being looked after by Silver Rose, so that left part of Haviana's head clear. Many thoughts swirled around her as she looked at the depressing landscape. It was bare and barren, like a never ending stretch of dead grass and bushes. Even though spring as coming, no new life inhabiting this barren landscape. Haviana sighed and wondered if she should make a short trip to Delepio Meadow. She turned, beginning to trot in the direction of the land. Surely Incognito would not notice her not being at the herd . He never thought of her these days. It was all about Viali the only to birth a colt. She did receive some attention though. Still, Delepio Meadow had new life and horses to talk she. She had no intention of being claimed though...or did she? Herd life was so complicating. Boodica was on the brink of becoming Lead Mare basically, and Viali was probably going to be the dominant mare.

Haviana froze as her nostrils flared, catching the scent of a well known horse. Guilt washed over Haviana as she realised her conscience was telling her not to go to Delepio Meadow. Or was it? She turned and looked back over the plateau, searching for the muscular form of Incognito. She saw him and immediately wanted to shrink to nothing. Damn it. Stupid Plateau. No were to hide. She gave a sigh as she realised he would know her intentions. She was basically on the border. She sighed again and walked slowly towards Incognito, her gaze downcast as she approached. She lowered her head like a sulking puppy, knowing she would be in trouble. No horse made a sound as Haviana stayed frozen, wondering what would happen. Haviana wondered if she would be in trouble also for not going straight to Arrow's Herd. The rest of the herd had left, but Haviana had needed some alone time, some time to breathe from the depressing and confusing emotions and thoughts swirling around her head like a whirlpool. She had entrusted Silver Rose to look after Dark Princess...Had something happened to her? Had Incognito been looking for her?

Post Status: complete/incomplete
Word Count: 442
My Muse Level: bad/average/good/excellent
My Mood: Bit tired
Haviana's Mood: A bit sulking, depressed, confused.

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[blackie]

Alone at first, lost in my own aggrivation and pleading with my neck muslces to stop quivering and irritating my wound, I did not take notice to Haviana at first - or really at all. I had thought about her being here but had not considered it - I had not told her I was going to be here, I hadn't told anyone. So the fact that she was here was mysterious and concerning, especially since when I finally gained knowledge of her presence my gaze locked upon her frame just near the border which led to Delepio Meadow. My expression changed into obvious surprise, watching her calmly and making no movements to prevent her from leaving. I cared about Haviana, but had no time for a disloyal mare and letting her go would be easy knowing I could not trust her. She had noticed me though, our gazes met as I watched her stop and look at me. I knew from this distance she could not detenct my expression or body language, but as she approached she would hopefully become regretfully aware of my unease around her.

My stature became more domineering than was normal when Haviana was around, my entire body stiffening as my defenses were mildly set; making it completely obvious the offense I took to her actions. I didn't care that she hadn't gone straight to Silver Arrow's herd and took no thought of where Dark Princess was. Honestly, I was ticked that she would even have the smallest desire to leave my herd, to leave me. I didn't consider that she was going to Delepio just so socialize or explore, because everyone knew darn well what that land was for. I had given her no motivation, had not provoked her into taking such actions.

All this also made me slightly curious as well, goaded more by Haviana's slumpish appearance than my own thoughts. I could tell that she knew she had done wrong or was doing something wrong, or was regretting something. Even as she stood before me and seemed almost apologetic, I just stared at her with mild distaste, distrust and inquiry. I did not move to approach her, to close the gap between us. I did not show her any affection or in any way soften my expression. I refused to directly accuse the mare though, and so I rested on simply asking and assuming she would tell the truth. All past thoughts of what I was going to talk about were gone, completely erased just as quickly as they had arrived.

What were you just doing, Haviana? And you better tell me the truth.

For the first time my tone was threatening towards Haviana as well as demanding. I was not mad anymore, quite calm actually. I was aggrivated though and visibly so, watching the mare with obvious critique as I waited impatiently for her response.



Post Status: complete/incomplete
Word Count: 484
My Muse Level: bad/average/good/excellent
My Mood: Sore and tired. My knee is killing me
Incognito's Mood: Aggrivated but curious.

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Haviana flinched as She saw Incognito stiffen, his defenses up. She had obviously cause him harm. She paused as he stood waiting, seeming to decide what to do with her. Her head whirled with thoughts? What had she done... His voice hit her like a whip as she flinched back, her eyes wide as she thought he was going to bite and abuse her. His voice was cold and she subconsciously took a step back, away from the bitter tone. Just like when her father had talked to her, like vermin, like a disgrace.

What were you just doing, Haviana? And you better tell me the truth.

Incognito's voice boomed. Hmm...What should she do? A slight bitter taste ran over her mouth as she realised Incognito mustn't have trusted her. A slight flare of anger flared through her as she looked up at Incognito. After all they had been through, did he really think she was disloyal? She bit back her words of anger and looked down at the ground, her jaw grating.

"I did not do as you think"

She said, her tone short and curt. She looked up now , her chin high. She stepped forward hastily as she realised Incgnito would be sizing her up, wondering her next words. She was a strong mare, one who did not need her pride wounded

"I needed to get away...Things have been confusing me and I needed some time to...sort things out.I...I needed to find you also. Things have been so confusing lately, with all the new herd members, with looking after Princess and with...you. Princess wears me out and I find no time to be with you, but sometimes I feel like you prefer to spend time with Boodica and Viali."

Her tone was clam and slightly quivering as she wondered what Incognito would do to her. She technically had been a disloyal mare, but only in Incognito's eyes. She looked defeated. She had never struggled before to admit something to Incognito....but sh did. She struggled to grasp her thoughts and looked embarrassed.

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Word Count: 358
My Muse Level: bad/average/good/excellent
My Mood: Bit tired
Haviana's Mood: Confused, Defeated, Angry

[blackie]

I was not moved by Haviana's reactions to my change in demeanor; her flinch, taking a step back and obvious distress to my actions and words combined taken in stride. It was as if I had expected it, but really I had just become callous to Haviana, unwilling to permit her to affect my emotions until I understood her motives and thoughts. I listened politely to her dismissal of my accusational tone, but sighed impatiently to tell her I still thought otherwise. When she approached me once more I in turn retreated, revealing to her I was not willing to accept her until I found a satisfactory reason to her actions. Even with my rejection I proffered her my obvious attention, showing I was not going to neglect her completely regardless of my thoughts of her. Aerial sensors quivered with anticipation, listening to the words which slowly dripped from her mouth. I did not condemn her for her confusion or needing time to her himself, for I often found myself in similar predicaments. When she spoke of needing to find me my refined skull lifted slightly with interest, but the words that followed immediately frustrated me and sent my skull to its authoritative self, lacking any interest at all.

I sighed, quite obviously actually, cranium shifting back and forth with obvious displeasure of her words. Ligaments shifted and I brushed past Haviana, showing her very little acknowledgement as I then stood, looking at the rising sun. Eventually I turned back around and faced the mare, struggling to keep a smouldering temper from flaring.

I go to another stallion and swallow my d*mn pride to ask to move the herd, so that you and the rest of the mares who gave birth and my progeny may be able to survive, and you are upset because.... I paused, obviously retracting my tone and my words as it came off excessively rough and malicious. Eyes closed, attempting to return my breathing to normal as it had become heavy with my anger. I walked slowly over to Haviana, stopping with my ebon cadaver looming next to hers. I do not need to justify myself to you, Haviana, if you are upset with me because of jealousy. Who I spend my time with is my own business, and not once have you shown any interest in wanting any time alone with me in the first place. I am also so sorry that my daughter is such a burden to you, I'm sure if it's that bad Boodica would be more than willing to adopt her. I did not intentionally speak of giving the foal to Boodica to hurt Haviana, but she was the only mare who did not have a foal. I knew that, for me, Boodica would adopt the mare regardless of qualms with Haviana.

Although I had stopped speaking, it was obvious by my parted lips that I was not done. None the less my words were much softer than before, showing obvious control over my attitude regardless of how much Haviana had pushed my buttons. I heaved a deep breath but exhaled it slowly, russet orbs moving as I looked over the mare, waiting patiently for a reaction though not relying on a good one as I continued. I never mind any of my mares being open with me, Haviana, but for me to see you heading to Delepio Meadows and then your excuse for it being this... I cannot tolerate it. Dial shook as if to make the statement concrete, sighing as I fought with myself, wondering what I should do. If you stay in my herd, Haviana, you will be demoted to a regular mare and not a favoured mare. But since I seem to be such a bad stallion, I give you permission to leave.

It was how calm and peacefully I spoke that sounded so odd, made my words perhaps so harmful and different than what Haviana may have expected. I could explain to her how deeply rooted my affections were for both her and Boodica, and how I had been arguing with myself what I should do and how to figure things out. I did not feel like exposing myself to Haviana, a mare who now just seemed 'that' mare who wanted her leader to herself, jealous or not, due to love or just insanity. It showed upon my facade I was not mad or even aggrivated with her, but disappointed, mildly hurt as I stared calmly at her once more, always seeming to wait on her or some other mare.


Post Status: complete/incomplete
Word Count: 764
My Muse Level: bad/average/good/excellent
My Mood: Sore and tired. My knee is killing me
Incognito's Mood: Disappointed more than anything, frustrated as well.

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Incognito listened to me attentively the whole time, only making a move when I stepped forward...he stepped back. A pang went through me like chills and I stepped back also, wanting to get away. But I showed Incognito respect and listened throughout his whole speech. As he walked over Haviana paused, wondering if he would be angry and bite her, or calm and open. He stood, intimidating as his next words bit into her, like whip lash.

I am also so sorry that my daughter is such a burden to you, I'm sure if it's that bad Boodica would be more than willing to adopt her.

Haviana tore her gaze away from Incognito and stared at the ground, fuming. How dare he talk about her not being capable to look after her own foal? Like he had ever gone through the pain and weariness a foal brought, looking after it day and night. Ha.He paused and waited for me to say something. I would never answer to giving away my foal. His tone was calm and disappointed as he kept talking

If you stay in my herd, Haviana, you will be demoted to a regular mare and not a favoured mare. But since I seem to be such a bad stallion, I give you permission to leave.

What? Haviana looked dazed. He wanted me to leave? She shook her head, trying to clear it of the confusing thoughts running around.

"MY Lord, I would never leave my home. You are wrong. I would never say your a bad stallion"

She said. Her tone was crisp and short. She had purposely called Incognito that, showing she no longer was friends with him. "If that is your choice to make me a normal mare, then that is your choice" She said, choosing to speak of the fortunate event last. Her tone was formal as she didn't look at him directly.

"So this was it? I'm a plain old mare with a choice to leave my home, basically being kicked out by the one horse I thought understood me? You want me to give my foal away to the mare I hate?The one horse who I thought understood me is asking me to leave and is extremely disappointed with me? Were do you want me to leave Princess? You can pick her up form Rose whenever you want. I am sure Boodica would want to make it soon"

My tone was sarcastic and bitter as they spilled out, breaking my polite, emotionless and formal facade. Even though my choice was to stay in the herd, I would not talk to Incognito..For as long as possible. I would care for my filly and leave with her when old enough. It tore my heart to say these words. "I wish it would all disspear" I murmed. I wondered if Incognito had heard them. I turned away form Incognito sadly. I turned my skull over my shoulder as said quietly, just loud enough for him to hear

" And do you know what the worst thing is...I thought we had something"

I wondered if he would follow me as I walked slowly over the barren land



Post Status: complete/incomplete
Word Count: 540
My Muse Level: bad/average/good/excellent
My Mood: Feeling Hot and icky
Haviana's Mood: Very Sad

[blackie]

I stood motionless, waiting as if I was going to listen to her. I knew I was not going to though because I had been through this more than once, and would probably go through it again if I never found a Queen. Her words had little affect on me, her tone to me nothing but monotone as I gave her a dead and blank stare. I listened but did not acknowledge, until she started to go into a long story of things I cared little for. To me it sounded like she only wanted pity, like she was trying to turn it around and make me seem like I was in the wrong. I knew otherwise and just snorted, not listening to her as I turned around and started to leave, allowing her to continue speaking or stop and stare at me. I did stop suddenly though, and looked back just before she turned to retreat.

Your hate and jealousy is what caused this Haviana, and ruined anything that either of us thought we had.

Lip quivered with displeasure of my words, but with ease it seemed I cast the mare and whatever we had aside. I had no time for her excuses and 'oh, poor mes' and for the sake of not wasting time or breathe I pranced away from the mare, obviously unaffected by her words and broken demeanor. Truely I enjoyed the mare and cared for her, but when I had justifiable reasons for someone to become my enemy, an enemy was easy to make. Her immaturity of the entire situation sickened me as I eventually broke out into a full gallop, leaving the mare to be alone, forever apart from me, as she wished.


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My Mood: Sore and tired. My knee is killing me
Incognito's Mood: He really just doesn't care anymore.

I still expect Haviana to be present at herd meetings and at the meeting at Arrow's herd.

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[.:Lindsay793:.]

-Should I post or no? -

[blackie]

ooc| No, why would you need to post?

[.:Lindsay793:.]

-idk, as Silver or something just a suggestion-